pandamoneum

25 year old cat lover currently adventuring in Portland, Oregon. Professional procrastinator. I talk to my cats as if they actually understand what I'm saying.

I just wanna fuck.
A.
Lot.

He used to smile like that when i texted him
He used to text me all the time
He has so much happiness that i dont feel i can produce like that anymore
I keep telling myself im not the jealous type
That
Is
A
Lie
Youre gonna miss me when im gone?
Maybe
Hell
I dont know anymore
I feel rage
And sadness
And
Well
I dont know

Or do i?

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

I really am trying to be understanding. I am trying to not lose my cool. Im doing what i can to keep my head on my shoulders and my mind clear. Emotions cloud everything.

"this is a tease"
” im not here to tease you”
“Oh?”
“I wanna get fucked”

Yup.

Just bloody annoyed